Think We Kissed But I Forgot

Have you ever wished you could help someone so badly but there's just nothing you can do? Well, that's how I feel right now. I'm no love guru, I mean seriously, its just something most people believe in. But who really knows the meaning? We are all in this place where everyone convinces themselves that love is the best thing out there or no other feeling is greater than it. Fess up people, do you really know what it is? Cause I have no clue.

Planet Earth, you scare the living shit out of me.


Since I was 12 , I told myself I wanted to become a graphic designer. But now , Im looking into architechture. 

This is how I see it : The universe has a group of accepted people (Presidents , Doctors , Pharmacists , Queen of England , Prime Ministers , Engineers , Lawyers , Madonna , Elton John etc) And since i love art so very much , architecture is the closest career thats related to art and this accepted group of successors. Forgive me if Im not making sense , Im tired. Sigh sigh sigh and a million more sighs. I am eighteen and I don't know what I want to do as a career. It seems like everyone has set their mind on a certain field and I'm the only one left behind. I think I mentioned architecture a few months ago. I don't have a passion for architecture, honest. Classic buildings and vintage pillars are great and all but... sigh. 

I somehow feel like doing journalism now. If I was given the chance to be a journalist, I'd be a fashion journalist. I don't want to end up in jail for saying this but Malaysian fashion is not in a good state. I would love to study abroad but I don't want to go away for so long. I might forget my roots and not to mention customs and religion and all that. Sometimes I feel like my skull might just crack open.