GUESS PENDANT

hey . blogging again .
this night just want to crap-ing bout my pendant .
puteri guerdon me this pendant .
what a lovely auntie . hahaha
and this evening , one chinese galz MINTAK AKU JUAL pendant nie .
ohhhh goshhhh , memang tak lah !
and aku xkan juai !
NO WAY !
hahaha . excited taw !
cina bodo uh nak mintak beli RM700 ngn aku .
hey , it doesnt cost to you but it cant replaced puteri's sincere-ing .
seeee on it . hahaha

nahhhh , here the ladies that give me the PENDANT :)

 i missed all moment i had with her .

iloveyouu auntie :)

u're 31 this years n u look younger than me .

NOT FAIR !

hahaha .

everynight we go thru HEART -to-HEART ,

pillowtalk ,

hug-ing :(

sometime we're quarreling .

and i missed that :(

OKTHXBAI :(

PUTRY MELLISSA .

Megan Fox's Disappearing Tattoo

Looks like MEGAN FOX is losing one of her trademark tattoos as she reveals a significantly faded portrait of Marilyn Monroe at a recent event . 


Is that the only thing ppl notice , and how can they be so critical of something so small ; that it makes NEWS . So she got the tattoo when she was younger , and now maybe she wants to get rid of it or not . Every heard of makeup , ppl ? Everyone's a critic .

Also , ppl ranting and raving over the surgery she's had ...WTH ! Just because she was blessed with natural beauty , doesn't mean she's not allowed to be self conscious . She's had a few minor things done and it doesn't seem like it's overdone ; more like slightly refined . Everyone's throwing fits , I've seen more drastic surgeries done to other Celebrities that deserve more attention . Everyone is a critic . 


Hey ladies ! Leave the tatoos and the body piercing alone . If your'e beautiful you dont need it . If your'e ugly it does'nt help . (DISAGREEEEEEE !) i want my one . so what ?
And so on , if my bf let me do tattoos , i will have it on my tongue . so other muslim wont able to see it .But , malay seem ILLICIT to make some tattoos . arent us ?

JUST FINE .

I LOVE THIS .

but then ,

as malay im not allowed to do this .

okthxbai .

hey ya STALKER !

hey hey you son of bitch . STEAL-ing my baby ! you ruined her life til she's BLUR dont know who to choose between you or AA . let's pretend you was on AA shoes , for sure you will mad and crush .

you TRASH ! KAYA macam mana pon kalau amik orang punyer mesti dapat BALASAN !

KARMA okay ? just wait what is goin to happen . BACK OFF laaa boy . 

you shud know they LOVE each other and suddenly u came and ruined their RELATIONSHIP .

IM FUCKING FUCK A DOUBLE DICK LIKE YA !

im guess-ing , maybe someday u will lose her . yeahhhh . im pray for that .

even i layan you on FB it doesnt mean i LIKE or INTERESTED to be fren wif you .

just becoz u're my uncle's fren . 

hey Dick , kemon lah . FIKIR ! ada otak kan ? NORMAL kan ? So , FIKIR !

jangan nak buat2 BUTA lah DICK . and i bet you know bout my BABY link to AA but you still try ur best to get her . Good son ! you BRAVE ! 

Thing you need to know are :

• u HURTed many ppl til AA's mom also cried when she knows my BABY no more belong to his son .
• u HURTed AA a lot til AA escape himself from my BABY .
• my grandparents also warn my BABY not too be close with you(JUST LET YOU KNOW THIS)they hate you MAYBE while they know you're RICH . They dont mind bout your wealth as you know . stop showing and talikng like only you 're one who kaya in this world .CRAP !
• u HURTed my NASRUL once when you started goin to flirt me . sorry , i dont need a man like you in my life . my BABY the one who approve you in my FB . and soon i gotta remove u but slowly til no one noticed that . 
• u owez RUIN my plan . okay , let's say i plan wif my auntie and uncle nak pergi KAROK , u suddenly text my BABY and point muka kesian sebab nak ikot . hey ! it's our family entertainment . you shud leave us behind sometyme . you not connect to my family and nothing yet .
• pretending like dont know me and i know u'd been STALKER bout me . u read my blog and my wallpost between me and my NASRUL . u ask your fren to follow my TWITTER and FORMSPRING . you know what , i searched for that boy FB and his mutual was you ! it is you ! hey , if kau x STALK aku , mcm mana kau boleh tahu bout my NASRUL accident in his project booth ? and talked bout MARS NEED MOMS 3D . and know how many month was our love begin . yet , u confusing me . aku x paham . BLURRR =.='
• i hate the way u owez CURI HATI family aku konon ajak pergi DINNER , ajak pergi trip , vacation or so on . pergi laaaa sial . i doesnt mind that . nak mampos pon xpe . xdela SAKIT MATA aku nak tgk kau lagi ! (SUBHANALLAH ! apa nie natasha ? mengucap2 . xmo marah2)
• you totally PISSED ME OFF like HELL ! everyone on AA side . so rememner , you dont have any to be wuth you and back up you ?

To my BABY , next time jangan pandai2 nak MATE someone . and result , dah kena atas BATANG HIDUNG sendiri .okay ? a lesson for you . choose the 1 who you truly LOVES .

To you BABUN , go and get another galz you stupid BUFFALO ! fuck you !

im sweet-scented . do i ?

J.Lo's fragrance called "Live Luxe"

hey mama , thank for supersede my perfume ! my baby NASRUL love it . 

haaaaaaaaa . come on gentlemen , kiss me on my neck . 

ODOUR MY BODY SMELL !

hmmmmmm . wangi tak ? wangi kan ?

BHAHAHAHA

J.lo's lotion . so damn wangii ! currently on date , i will bring this together . after makan , i will rub his hand with this SHIT . then , he will kiss my hand so many times . oh god . SHAME :p

GEDIK kan kami ? actually i'd wore this b4 but then my little notty czn bernama CHUCKIE broke it . then i curik2 pakai Ferragamo mama . SOOREYYYY MAMA . u buy for me NINA RICCI but seem i hate that smell . i give it to adik and adik like it while it's smell like TAIK KUCING . yelah , barang free semua nya wangi kan ?

Now on , im using new bottle from CHLOE . manja bought for me that . wangi ! i love it . but i prefer sweet smell . 

To MANJA , 

thank for this my dear :)

and mama , thanks for the J.Lo .

iLOVEyouMAMA :')

DEAR Mr. DIPPY ! LISTEN PLEASE :(

hey cousin , u gonna marry soon . COOL dude . it AWESOMEEEEE . good dear , marriage in islam is seeks to build a closer friendship is something that is halal . your time had reach . and remember , take a good care of ur future wife . it seem not too easy to be a lovely husband and a partner for a pair . REMEMBER ! and REMEMBER , give , teach and show a good behavior to ur future wife :) ILOVEYOUUU cousin ! to the BRIDE side , obey to your husband is the greatest reward u'll hav when u die soon . i didnt pray for your DEATH dear but it is a big RESPONSIBLE u will have when your titled change to "WIFE" . young ? dun think bout an age because AN AGE IS JUST A NUMBER (i hate counting , this is why i hate NUMBERS HAHA). as long as both of you can cope any problem that emerge in your menage . babai :) im gonna miss you my CUCKOO ! and i  miss the moment we POTTY together :) thank to you my dear cousin , u made up my day . and thank again because you're the one who acquaint me to NASRUL AFIQ DENOSO . 

WTF ?

You know when you have those really nice and happy dreams and you wake up and you sigh with relief that it was just a dream ? what a dream yesterday  . dream bout i went to MID VALLEY with NASRUL and buy a cat . a MUNCHKIN type . i guess i spell it correctly . HAHA . fooling around . i want dat cat so bad til i dreamed bout it . oh god :( mama wont let me to adopt dat pet . :'( I WANT THAT ! I WANT THAT !

gimme that ! i want that ! last two week i saw this type of cat with NASRUL and both of us been enamored with this little DICK ! and yesterday , i felt like i wont woke from my dream . may i dream bout that again ? GOD PLEASEEEEEEEEEE :( 

Nahhhhhhh . here goes my baby . short leg just like ur momma bebeh . HAHA . i admit i was short . but not scrubby type . i mean i look good with my height but i want some more ! euwwwww perasan kan ?
And glad to let all of u know , i started love cat since i'd be fren and closed to NASRUL . he's a CAT LOVER . but once before he was a MALTREAT KING . now he had insaf i think . kan NASRUL ?

 I just had a really long cold shower this morning . I feel so clean and fresh . yihaaaaa :)
okbai :)

it's the HAPPY POST ! ever !

This is , The Happy Post . The stuff that makes me happy . READ IT , it'll make you all warm and fuzzy for the rest of the day  :D


Rainbows , clouds , flowers , cats , rabbits , stars , moon , sun , rain , grass , blue , white , yellow , green , purple , pillows , Disney , teddy , candy , cereal , sandwiches , kisses , hugs , love , kodak moments , memories , 7Up , Vanilla Coke , Pasta , lasagna , music , dreams , milo , dinosaurs , cows , friends , bookshops , stationary , clothes , shoes , dancing , ribbons , music box , carousel , ponies , photo's , perfumes , beds, windows , traffic jams while raining , butter and jam , bread and butter , family , Dominos Pizza , Nandos , Starbucks meet ups , happy news , NASRUL AFIQ , YouTube , Mozella , Jack Johnson , John Mayer , The Killers , Muse ,  iPod , garden , printscreen moments , long lost friends , Madeline , Banana in Pajamas , COURAGE THE COWARDLY DOG , hope , inspiration , cotton candy , Skittles , Hershey , Little Miss Sunshine , movies , Skype , slurpee , maggi , mamaks , lunch dates , finding out there is someone else like me , butterfly , traffic lights , colorful panties , photography , tennis , art , literature , musical plays , love songs , sunday songs , electro and hardcore songs , making faces , jokes , imagination , public holidays , early mornings , late nights , midnight movies , scissors , smileys , hearts , doodles , drawing , coloring , socks , rubber ducks , late night hot shower s, body lotion , GOOD GRADES , fairness in this unfair world , Distinctions , princess , new friends , boxer , long road trips ...


NO FUCKING MOSQUITO'S IN THIS GOD DAMN WORLD . Go die la all mosquito's . Stop sucking people's blood , boleh tak ?  :(


famous amos cookies , caramel frap , cookie and cream , Baskin robbins , topshop , FCUK , FOREVER21 , BREAD&BUTTER , FRED PERRY , private structure , hockey pockey , comics , drama , peace , dancing in the rain , weirdness , specialness , serendipity , Facebook (LMAO) , saved texts , humming nursery rhymes , pretty birds chirping , FLAMING steamboat , fishy , dragonfly , charm bracelets , scrapbooks , diary , trees , .....  sighh i'm happy enough  :)   

The Black Dahlia Murder - Necropolis

MOOD : release tension !

FAKIT !

great .

damn great .

It's a girl thing .

Blegh . I'm sucha' girl . What am I talking about ?

MOOD SWINGS .

I swear . It's pissing me off . I get frustrated and sad over the littlest things . And at times , I even burst into tears. Then I start laughing cause I ask myself

"Why am I crying, again ?"

Therefor , ... I'm sucha' girl .

Anyway , my minds been awfully odd these couple of days . It's like , I over think stuff and I get frustrated easily AND I have very , VERY random i.m.a.g.i.n.a.t.i.o.n .

Hahahaha .

Swedish House Mafia - One

MEMORIES :)

MUSE GREAT ALBUM !

I have been listening to this album , A LOT . Thanks to some cat I know . But yeah , thanks kitty , cause now I'm pretty much obsessed with this album . I don't seem to get bored with their songs .

Favorites from this album :

Apocalypse Please

Time Is Running Out

Sing For Absolution

Stockholm Syndrome

Falling Away With You

Interlude

Hysteria

Blackout

Butterflies & Hurricanes

The Small Print

Endlessly

Thougts Of A Dying Atheist

Not much I can say about this album since , 

I'm pretty sure all of you guys are familiar 

with how are their songs are usually like . 

Very Dramatical .

Album ratings : 5 ☆

Paralyzed bride-to-be determined to walk down the aisle

It was a slow , sweet walk down the aisle for a bride whose every unlikely stride is a marvel .

With each difficult step Jennifer Darmon , flanked by her father Alan and brother Kevin , was concentrating on her footsteps , trying not to step on their toes . Even after almost three years of trying to relearn walking after an auto accident that paralyzed her from the hips down , the journey down the aisle wasn’t easy .

Finally she made it to the side of waiting groom Mike Belawetz . After an exchange of vows , he whisked her up in his arms and carried her out of the crowded room at Mackenzie Hall to a ringing wave of applause from family and friends .
It was a breathtaking achievement for 28-year-old Darmon. After the 2008 car accident , she was told she would never walk again .
How sweet !
She also want to have a PERFECT and NORMAL wedding day just like others .
And she struggle and wont give-up til she got and pass what did she want .
I LOVE THIS PRETTY LADY !
Wonderful !
Her husband should be PROUD of his wife's accomplishments .
A great and big applause she deserve from of what had she did .

:'(

The Past !

As I walked through those gates like I use to 6 years a go , memories started coming back to me and I felt as though I was in year 6 again , wearing my blue baju kurung and my hair in a ponytail that took me a long time to tie. 

Such nostalgia . But it felt good . Reminded me of such easier times . 

I love my primary life . I'm sure in the mere future , I'll probably feel the same way about my secondary life ... well at least I hope so  :) 

Fidelity .

She decided to sit in the corner of her room and listen to nothing but her thoughts . It was as though time stood still for her . Like everything for once , waited .

She then slowly heard a faint voice , her voice . She listens , and tries to understand .

The voice became fainter and slowly she could not hear anything . Silence surrounded her .

Suddenly, she felt the nothingness of her surroundings pulling her , she couldn't see , she couldn't breathe . The second was over , and she's gasping for air .

She finds herself relieving the moments she first met all the people that ever mattered to her . Person after person brought laughter and smiles upon her face . Memories flooded back .

It was over . She smiled and opened her eyes .

She looked at her watch , and only a minute has past even though it felt like forever meeting everyone again for the first time .

It was just what she needed .

Finding hope and the will to continue was easier than she thought . She just had to remember although she's only lived a brief life here in this world , despite the bitter memories she's been through , along the way , she's met wonderful people and has collected priceless memories . Learned a lot and day by day becoming wiser and stronger .

too much PREDATORY till he hurt himself

okay . Today was different . I realised something AND today not feeling so well . alot of work to done with . and pressure come from my baby when he CUT his leg arteries . i mean he inadvertent . accidentally cut . fucking worried bout him .. get well soon NASRUL AFIQ . wtf is wrong with me ? i cant guard u . im sorry :( forgive me baby . 




GET WELL SOON BABY ! 
I LOVE YOUU !

dis is was the stupid fucking ass that had make my baby lesion and wound . im warn him to not use and do not ever TOUCH this dick again . i get and bet him TRAUMA to touch dis dick . HAHAHA . but my baby was STRONG . so he still can move and walk or jumping around in his room by himself . ALONE . im PROUD of him . never pester his fren , family or others and not a spoon-fed . i mean he's a SELF-SUFFICING and this is why I LOVE HIM so much .

this might happen to all of you if you're not beware and careless . i hate to TALK bout this and yet i hate to posted something can make me felt so down . okthxbai .

i love you today , 

i'll love you tomorrow , 

i'll love you next week , 

next month , 

next year and perhaps forever

fullstop :)

DEATH DEATH DEATH !

Ever since we were old enough our parents has told us that one day , we will face death . Everyone dies . That's just the way it is , our parents would tell us when we'd question them why . Though I guess then , we didn't really understand the meaning or the impact of death because we wouldn't really feel the grief of losing someone cause we weren't really attached to anyone ... yet .

Death . Heaven . Hell . Something we are all fully aware of . I guess every religion believes in this ? or most ? I'm not sure . The only thing thats different in every religion is how you achieve in getting to heaven . What you have to do in order to be able to be accepted in heaven .

"Everyone wants to go to heaven but nobody wants to die" .

I read that somewhere and that quote is spot on. But why are we all afraid of death? Probably because we don't know what is to happen to us after death .

I know I will die one day. I know that . - but yet I can't imagine myself .. dead . Where will I be ? What state would I be in ? Will I still remember everything .. ? Will I feel lonely ? Because I don't have anyone there ? so many questions that definitely can't be answered by anyone . Which I guess what makes death so scary for me . It's totally an unknown subject to anyone .

Sure , it is briefly explained on where one will go after death in the al-quran . But.. it's not specific , there's still that little bit of doubt .

Everyone thinks their religion is the RIGHT religion . But how do you know for sure ? For example in my religion it is stated that non muslims go straight to hell and has no chance of getting in heaven . Which is a bit over the top don't you think ? What if that person is a GENUINELY a good person , what, just because that person isn't a muslim , that person is sent straight to hell to mingle with rapists and people who are down right evil ?

It isn't their fault they're not a muslim . They weren't born a muslim . If I wasn't born a muslim , I don't think I would have converted . Truthfully speaking because I wouldn't think twice about researching about the religion because I would have thought MY religion that I was born with was the right religion . Like I am thinking now .

*Sigh*

Yes these are the kinda things that goes through my mind half of the time .


Sorry for this boring post .

What he really means .

Do you understand “guy-talk ?” Can you comprehend all the subtle and not so subtle nuances of his secret language ? If you’re a woman , chances are the answer is : sort of , kind of , errrr , not really . “Men don’t always say what they mean ,” . “And sometimes we say what we mean but women understand it completely differently .” All in all , that means that cracking the code can be difficult but not impossible . To give you a head start , we talked to relationship experts and real guys to shed some light on some of a guy’s most common lines and what in the world he really means by them . 


Man: "Yes i am listening."
Translation: I haven't heard a word you just said, but I'm going to bluff my way through by nodding and grunting.

Man: "Your being unreasonable."
Translation: Why are you acting like a crazy person?


Man: "I'm not like other guys."
Translation: I am exactly like other guys.

Man: "I love you."
Translation: My penis loves you.

Man: "I won't come home drunk, I'm only having a couple beers."
Translation: I'll be home at 2:00am, trip over the cat and pee in the plant pot because i can't make it to the toilet.

Man: "I'm not ready for a long term relationship."
Translation: I'm a commitment phobe who wants a booty call.

Man: "I know exactly where we are."
Translation: We're lost.
Man: "Its only a scratch ."
Translation: ARGHHHHHH my f****** arm is falling off .

Man: "I'm dying ."
Translation: I have a cold .

Man: "Its a guy thing ."
Translation: No women allowed .
Man: "Tell me more about your friend Tom ."
Translation: Have you slept with him ?

Man: "I only have eyes for you."
Translation: I check out other women , but only when you're not looking .


Understanding men is like trying to understand algebra , useless and pointless . They think in totally different way to us women . Well help is here ladies in the form of my Man Translator . Below are some common phrases often uttered by the male species , and what he really means when he says "I love you" on the second date . 
And for GUYS : A GUIDE TO GIRL TALK :)
If you’ve ever spoken to a woman , it’s fair to say you’ve been confused by one . Yes doesn’t always mean yes , no doesn’t always mean no , and most of us have once in our lives even admitted , “Well, I may have said that, but I didn’t mean it .” What’s with all the mixed messages ? “Women communicate by giving subtle suggestions instead of being literal , so we can check for positive reinforcement before we continue . We want to be careful about the impact we have on the other person ,” . But while figuring out what women really want can be difficult , it’s not impossible . So follow this guide to “girl-speak .” These are some of the things you might hear a woman say as you meet , date and woo her and the code for reading between the lines . 

HER STORY

While she sits there , on her bed , alone , lots of things goes through her mind .

What happened to me ? Why am I so jaded all of a sudden ? Where's my friends ? Since when have I become a one man army ? Why do I keep these feelings inside me ? I'm counting down the days to when I'm going to explode . 

Barely a year has passed , and everything's all different now . Good or bad , it has not been defined .

She opens her window , and find it's a perfect evening outside . The suns up , blue sky , fluffy white clouds . The sounds of giggling kids and chirping birds fills the room .

So many questions she wants to be answered . She's learning to be patient . She's waits now for she's learned that time will reveal the answers eventually .

double DATE in SATURDAY . and AGAIN.....

I like to close my eyes and imagine how I'll be like in 18 years . -but sometimes , we don't become the people we expect to be . Am I the person I expected to be 5 years ago? I guess nothing turns out as we expect in life .
And now , like every other saturday we went to DATE . but today DATE was different . we include another DATE which is both are KELANTAN BORN and they were too sweet and kind to us( me and Nasrul ) . Feeling good and well to met them in MID valley . too much of story and gossip-ing . HAHAHA . they LIKE and LOVE to watch MELODI TV3 . nahhhh , how sweeetttt was them watch gossip-ing news together . i mean they were MISFITS together and having a GOOD CHEMISTRY . i love both of them . NIK LIYANA a.k.a SITI and APIEH HASHIM a.k.a CINA KELANTAN . HA HA HA <3 we went to Carl's Jr. then shopping . at the parting , we went to STARBUCKS . to APIEH and SITI , you guys was great and AWESOMEEEEEEE :)


I wanted to be a writer because I express myself better through words .

i know my face are bad and UGLY ,

but i dont care bout all that as long as he LOVED me :')

I wanted to be a princess so I got him .
i'm his princess .
and he was my prince .
I wanted to be superman because he saved lives so I wanted to be an ambulans driver .




.. I always just wanted to be things . Do I actually achieve everything I want to be ? Do the dreams turn to my reality ?

NO . 

Why do I not strive and work for what I want to be ? Why do I very often give up so fast ?

That is why i'm a failure . I don't have the drive and what it takes to achieve my dreams .

I want to be a person who fights for what he wants. 

NASRUL AFIQ .

I LOVE YOUU .