Salam Eid Mubarak All (:

Havent had the chance to write a post these days , things have been a little hectic lately but then again , its been that way for quite a while already . Everyones busy getting their Eid preparations done , shopping for new clothes , baking cookies , cooking awesome-tastic food as opposed to me whos been staying indoors , not that I'm complaining .

I'm wearing a red silk kaftan dress for this year's celebration , thanks to Manja whom bought it for me like just yesterday . HAHA . So last minute , but nevertheless , the dress is beautiful . So anyway , I would like to wish everyone an early Selamat Hari Raya . Sorry if I might have said something harsh or blunt or well hurt anyone in any way . Happy holidays !  :)

Jangan Nak Buat Leceh Kat Sini (!)

Hey ! i dont feel like to blogging in english . So , start cerita aku . Harini aku dapat chocolate from Jacqueline a.k.a Ex-Stewardess Fly Emirates . There she is .Nahhhh ! Pretty kan ? -------------->
Okay done . Fullstop ! Stop talking about Chocolate ! Hmmm . REASON ! Topic today is near to "THE REASON WHY I'D CREATE THIS BLOG" . Actually aku create account blog sebab ........ Aku nak ada MEMORIES and at least aku might have something REMINISCENCE to remember with . Listen , 
maybe semua orang cakap "ELEH , NAK SHOW 
OFF LAH TU PASAL BF DIA" ! Not at all . Just because my previous posted 
said "Hey , am not a LOSER to being single whole life" and ada MANGKUK 
thought aku ni "Player" . Aiiiiii .Aku xnak blog aku mati and one day aku akan
 bagi password blog aku kat bf aku so that he will keep publish something 
pasal aku bila aku dah x ada even aku being replace :') Aku tak nak lost all 
of our MEMORIES so this is the reason why aku create blog ni . 
FAHAM ?  aku dah start malas nak menaip . Tu je . Babai .

BlackBerry Bold 9900

cant wait to have this :)

click the link below for details *wink2*

BlackBerry Bold 9900 launch date - Gadget review 2011

goodnight NA :)

Do you know how sometimes you lie in bed , right before you're about to doze off , your mind starts to wander elsewhere , you start to think about the things you try your hardest to forget , about the things you don't speak of in the morning , about the things you would rather not talk about . You don't talk about it at all , sometimes it works , sometime you forget but not for long , because its there , its inevitable , its part of your scars . You tell yourself you're not affected , when you are . Scary isnt it , how we are . It may seem like we're okay but truth is , everyone has a story .


*hey fella , Nasrul teach me to do this every night before i'm started to snoring . HAHA . yeah !*

do not leave me :(

I dont know if I will lose you someday and I don't dare to know how it feels . There is always this little voice at the back of my head that says you're going to walk away , and by the time you do , I will not be prepared . And its going to hurt . Really bad . So I try to prepare myself for the worst , but I know , if or when the day comes , I will never be fully prepared . Losing you is one thing, coping with the change is another. Not seeing you for more  than five hours agitates me , imagine a lifetime . I dare not think about it . I say things I don't mean , you say things you don't mean . Thats what happens . It scares me to think that one day , I might not get to feel your heartbeat , or hold your hand , or even have you smiling at me , the way you smiled at me yesterday , the way you will smile at me today , and hopefully , tomorrow and forever .

It seems like it was just yesterday when everything you thought went wrong , but today , everything feels so right , everything fits , everything starts to make sense . I finally understood the phrase "tears of joy" because thats what its like , looking at you , wondering how on earth did I get so lucky ? What did I do to deserve such a beautiful life . Thats how it works , life , in its mysterious ways . You think its unfair , but God has better plans for you . Just wait and see :)

Dear Baby :)

I cannot promise a life without a little ups and downs,

I cannot promise sunshines and butterflies everyday,

I cannot promise that I will not make any mistakes at all,

But,

I promise to give you my best,

I promise to be there for you, even when you don't need me at all,

and I promise to love you, till the end of time.

L O L :D

topic of losing friends :p

Hi hello ,

so the picture up there was taken on Yusrina's birthday which was 1 years ago . I named them The Girlfriends , we used to crack every single day together , no hard feelings and what not , fighting cause of a guy , no fighting between each other etc. etc. These kind of fights shouldn't be happening tho if you guys really are close or best friends , js . Well .... that was LAST time . Now , no no not anymore . Like someone said to me , I gotta face the world . This is how it is . Everything is falling apart and we should just laugh it off . Things like these happen everyday . I've had enough . I feel like I'm the middle person . So when I hang out with the other girl , the other girls will start touching with me saying how could I not invite them . Then when I am not with that girl , like they even invite me . All kinds of excuses will be given to me . When I touching , who gives a shit anyway they will just say Tasha is over reacting . Yeah , ok . Not to mention , seems like there is always a facebook & twitter war every single day . That is from my point of view . Well .... this is the world right ? I gotta face it and just laugh it off . Cause this is just a funnay thing . Like I said , I care too much about other people . For once , I will be the self-centered bitch who would just care about herself . I am hurt actually . I may sound so emotional right now but hey that is the truth . Ego won't take you guys anywhere . Both sides will keep saying why should I say sorry ? I'm not the one who is at fault , she is and likewise . So yeah , it won't end . Forever it won't . And hey , it all started cause of the exs and the ohs . I don't want this girlfriend word to be said anymore . Cause u know why it is only meant when we are ALL together not when we are ALL breaking up . I'll just be the observer lah k . I always have .



P/S : I dont even care to lose both of you which is owez terGEDIK2 called each other Kakak or adik like errrrr -.-'
Go and get your life . Cakap nak happy kan ? GTH ! fakof .

I Need A Doctor

i LOVE Skylar Grey verse <3
like serious ! i NEED a doctor now :'(

we could have it :)

I am currently listening to The Sweet Escape by Gwen Stefani, I just absolutely  love this song. My best friend, Hariza , played this out loud for me back in 2007 when I was feeling down and it used to cheer me up, heck, it still does until today. 


I have a lot in my mind , but I somehow can't seem to get it out . It amazes me , really , how some people , at the age of their early 20s and still seem so immature ,as if they're still a teenager . News flash , you're not . Its time to grow up , its time we all grow up . Face our mistakes , face reality . Facebook , parties , dressing up to look good on camera and can't wait to have it uploaded , what life is that ? Deny it all we want , its the ugly truth , its what all our lives are revolved around nowadays . Chasing to have the coolest friends , attending the best parties , dancing to songs that don't even make sense , capturing the dirtiest photos , to achieve what actually ?


I guess fun used to be a big part of my life . Its fun while it lasted , and now when its reality , you look back at what you have been during your teenage years and can't help but regret every single shit youve done , realising that you were nothing but trash . OKAY STOP :)

And now , start talking bout my *DENOSO* . nahhhh . we'd reach a Danger Zone . kidding . he'd company me at 24/7 . yeahhhhmeeeee *HAPPY* I NEED SOMEONE . yes totally i NEED someone , then he came for me . My grandparent and uncle  involved in an accident :'( but thanks to god they're SAFE :) pfftttttt . Btw thanks to my baby :) for the 1st time you 24/7 with me . I LOVE YOU :)

This short post is specially for my denoso ,

honestly , I just realized I have never been there for you . And no , I'm not going to say sorry since you told me to save my sorry . I never thought that sometimes I am just too busy for you . I always say that you never lean on me when you have problems and you never tell me your problems but it is actually me the problem , and I didn't even offer my shoulder for you to lean on , I didn't even lend my ears to you . You're the best boyfriend that anybody could ever have , and I am the worst girlfriend that anybody could ever have . I have never appreciated you the way I should . Thank you for everything , sayang . Thank you for driving all the way from house to anywhere I want , and sorry for urge home immediately malam kat Castle tuh reason sbb nak muntah . just to put a smile on my face and sending me to Minnie Chop and force me to ate my Bihun Soup til LICIN  just to make sure I don't starve myself . Thank you for driving me here and there although you're tired .Thank you , thank you , thank youuuu !!! If I were to list what should I thank you for , I think this post will be full of thank yous . This time , I am begging you to give me a chance to let me improve myself and start thinking about you other than myself . PLEASE? :{ *it's all about cigarette* and please , update me by drop some comment if u read this .Forgive me . And i'd promise you not to touch even use that thang again :(

okthxbai .

circle circle dot dot (!)

So yeah , lets not turn this into one of those angry emo posts , shall we .. I wonder if Topshop's make up is any good ? I recently bought their cream stick , which purpose is to add colour and highlight your face and body . I havent had the chance to use it anywhere , but I did try it on once , I love how it blends with my skin but I don't know , I've never used any of Topshop's cosmetics . Oh and I bought their pencil lipstick as well, its sort of a nude colour , I don't know , it just looked adorable on the counter so oh well ..


I wonder whats the best foundation to use ? Most people would say Bobbi Brown . What say you ?

be my MONEY maker ?

I have my wants and I have my needs . But as a normal human being , I tend to get confuse with those two . I have a long list of the things that I want in my mind but if I had to write another list for the things that I really need , the amount would be two third of the things that I want . Okay , probably much much less than that . The internet is my biggest enemy , whenever I found the will to resist , it brings me back to google which leads to everything you could ever want , from the best burger in the world to cheapest shoes online and well , basically .. just anything . Fortunately for me,  I am still sane enough not to go crazy and spend the money that I don't have just and yes i prove it yesterday . went to mid valley with my aunt name's baby and buy 3 jeans at same day . whoaaaa . so my salary this month focusing to jeans . Jaspal , Topshop and Cotton On . hehehe . mood *HAPPY* .and am gonna sold my Guess because it's makes me look shorter than usual . hey ! im TALL ! opppssss. 

okthxbai :)

GOD , why me ?

i have no mood to post . i dont have an ideas , am BLANK . i just lose my baby black *rabbit* :(


okbai :(