HE'S NOTHING TO ME (!)

You said too much about us ,
Jealous much ? We were not really friends isnt it ? Why so perasan ?
Friends dont stab friends , Why care about us so much ? If you said that you had a so-called great life ?
So , move on girl , you the one who give us a shit , your foul mouth will not over isn’t it ?
why dont you mirror yourself ? Everybody in BTHO loath you , know your bad ass attitude , they talk about you a lot , i did defends you , but this is all i got ? A fucking hatred ?

You had crossed the line , seriously who give a damn about your wealth since deep down inside , we know you dont have it ? its just a crap fairy tale .
Let see how do you response this , you said your father will buy you a mini cooper for your birthday ?
HELLO THATS SOUND HELL A CRAP ? A MINI COOPER , FOR YOU ? WHAT A RICH PERSON YOU SUDDENLY ARE ?
-SERIOUSLY PEOPLE LAUGH WHEN THEY HEARD ABOUT IT , ENOUGH SAID .
Mirror yourself , why bother to look at my stuff ? people know you had a huge jealousy at others , you like to twisted words , make both people fight , thats your speciality kan ?

Seeeeee , It is Arfan's cat !

I posted my favourite things in my blog because of im inspired by some of pictures like this at dekstop .

See ? Your eyes only own a darn sight , pure and utter , what else ? oh yeah hatred and jealousy . See what a person you've becoming . *weeps .

Im sorry for your intoxicating sadness , but hey every gory thing has a limit , when will you learn ?
Dont talk about others , it will made you even look fucking horrible . A TOTAL PATHETIC .
Its not remotely funny when it comes to your crudely poetic blog claimed that we are poor , pity and fucked up . Hello ? We live in a legal house not a rent one . *sorry to said but your incredible story had make me so intense . WHO FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW YOU LABEL WHORING PACKAGE OF GIRLIE EVIL ?
I know it sad but we dont actually give a damn about your "new" friends .
Who the one who like to show off anyway ? EVERY PICTURE OF YOURS HAD THOSE CAMERA WHO IM THE ONE INSPIRED YOU ABOUT IT . SEE ? RECKON IT NOW ?

Secretly , we feel pity at you , when you try so hard to fit in your new life when you know deep down inside that you cant carry on your "cool" courses . Why torture yourself ? Why say that its ok when its not ? You dont even know how to draw a line of symmetry and now dream to design a building ? woah that impressed us too much !

So , chew on this baby :)

"Next time you point your finger i might have to bend it back , or break it girl ".

For sale: Human heart, used once

Im not that girl who has a perfect life . Im not that girl who all-you-can-laugh-with .

I have a messy hair that stays pretty when nobody's around . I have a rebel skins . And the society always complain that Im Chubby .

Im a girl who worked in construction thing . Im a girl who works with math . Im as plain as fuck . Im nobody wants to get around with . Im sad . Sad kid who all-you-can-trust-all-you-can-love-all-you-can-hold-and-not-scare-of-being-left-with . Funny thing

Life really is a strange addiction
And lastly i'd buy a GUCCI bag costed 3.2K . that is all . bahahaha

tongue-tied and BOO (!)

Why do I feel like I do not belong in anywhere ? I cannot be with a person for too long . They cannot own me . I cannot own them . I can feel the existence of gap . Why when everything is wonderful at the beginning but end up as suck as hell ? Why I fucked up in everything ? Why so hard to be with one another ? Why turns into black when it started out with white ? Why suddenly I feel so attached and just with a blink of an eye I don’t feel it anymore ? Why hate when the main intention is to love ? I don’t understand the situation I’m in right now . I couldn’t figure out what’s happening around me ?
Things flow too fast , I walk too slow , I barely walk to be exact , I crawl , crawl to search the right path to stand , and then walk , walk with confident . I want that feelings . The feelings of feel right about everything , no fucking doubt in my mind only the whisper of “go, don’t stop . Go, everything is fine . Go, don’t worry about everything . Run , run faster . Run , run harder , reach everything , grab everything , everything is yours , none to be lost , everything is permanent . All rights reserved . Run , as fast as your leg could run , go , fall in love without having a thought of what ifs ? Smile without having a thought of if anyone ever notices ? Do everything you want , do everything you desire , I got your back , I’ll back up everything for you . The world is yours . GO , DON’T STOP , NOW GO . This world belong to you NATASHA ! It's belong to US NA <3

distance

There's so many songs that I can sings to pass the time, and I'm running out of things to do to get you off my mind . With you is where I'd rather be , but we're stuck where we are , and it's so hard ; WE'RE SO FAR .

OKTHXBAI :(

Taca LOVE Momma

When I was a kid , I used to compare my family with my friends and wished I had their lives instead of mine . After years go by , Ive come to realise that I would never trade my family for any other . Okay, scratch that . I would never trade my mum for any other mum in this world . I used to want mums with coloured hair , fashionable clothes , well you know those "cool mums" . I now know that my mum doesnt need to act 10 years younger to be cool , she already is . She listens to my problems , she tries to understand even though sometimes she doesn’t , she laughs like a beat up car and the best part is , she's still here for me after all the crap I have put her through . What more could I possibly need ?  :)

do i get into other ? DO I ?

Sometimes people become who they are because of what happened to them . Honestly , I don't really think getting your heart broken is a good enough reason for anyone to treat other people like crap . You feel like shit so you try to mend what was broken by making other people feel the way you do ? Isn't that just selfish ? Or a little hypocritical ? I don't know . I'm speechless . I never knew anyone could be that angry . Or self absorbed .

Some people get cheated on countless of times for years . Some people are dying because they don't have a choice . Some people have to watch their kids suffer and can't do shit about it . So what makes you think that the burden you are carrying is heavier than others ? Come on man , Get yourself together . Why make yourself look weak when you could be doing the total opposite ? Toughen up , its a phase that you will get through . Stop accused me that "HEY , YOU ARE FORGETTING US AND TOTALLY CHANGED ! DO YOU GET INTO HIM ?" . Lemme tell you something , you are the one who steal me from him . So , stop post-ing on your wall that SOMEONE IS STEALING YOURS . okthxbai .

me and Tutti Frutti (!)

Tutti Frutti Froyo . The combination on Red velvet , Death by chocolates , and Banana . ++ strawberry , kiwi , white and chocolate chips , rainbow sprinkler , and chocolate syrup . Everything was divine .

Reach to Tutti Frutti just now with capital M .

Snap all this using his iPhone .

OKTHXBAI :)

nak macam dulu-dulu :(

I miss school .
I miss my buddy during school and teen .
I want my old life .
Can I have all that again :(
Can I ?
Can I ?
I miss to dance in front of fella .
I made it .
I miss to shout when CHEERLEADING .

I miss the conversations I had with my teen-fren .

I miss telling you about my dreams .

I miss telling you just about everything.

I miss all that kind :(

I miss to see all came and give support .
I miss my old family .
I miss miss miss miss !

O WANT THIS :(

Happy One Year Anniversary Baby NA

There are 7 man who meant the world to me . My Dad , My grandpa , three of My uncle , and last but not least , my all time favourite , lovely boy I’ve ever owned , Nasrul Afiq .
It shows that my relationship between Nas and me nearly hit 1years. Wow , that’s quite a long period . Long ? Yalah !  Two person without any legal tie been in loved for a quite long period . Im amazed . I guess loyalty is the key . Love itself is not enough to build a relationship , a permanent ones . We need to have loyalty . I succeed . He succeed . Both of us succeed .
I love the idea of loving him . I love the idea of being his “someone” . I wanted to be his forever , not his ‘sometimes’ . I believed in him . He’s the only man who made me losing my control , who made me think I can fly , who made me forgot there’s a line between reality and fantasy . He made it . He made it through my heart . He succeeded . He’s after all my delirious ecstasies .
He never pretend . He is what he is . Being with him makes me feel very comfortable . I can be myself , never in disguise . Messed up hair , drop my button . He okay-ed it . We’re both okay-ed it . We’ve been through a lot . Ups and downs . Bumpy route . Everything . I can’t believe we made it this far . I hope this celestial joy route wont comes to and end . I love you boy , I love you Nasrul Afiq Abd Hadi . I love you . I cant deny that baby . And I hope you're the LAST one . 
Happy One Years Anniversary ♥
13.Sept.2010
NA IS FOR NA

I'd give him FCUK same as mine for our 1st years anniversary !

Inspire Marilyn Monroe (:

I believe that everything happens for a reason . No matter how bad the situation is , there's definitely a reason for it . Even though life can be a bitch sometimes and has its ups and downs like a roller coaster or other times it feels like a merry-go-round , going around and around but seemingly getting no where , just remember that this is just how it is . This is life and you just have to deal with it .

Some people think that they're going through a really rough time and they're the only one who's going through it when the truth is , you ain't the only one . Open your big wide eyes and look around , everyone on this planet is going through 'something' . Everyone has their own problems , and some of them might actually have the same problem that you're going through right now . It's just that the only difference is how you handle it . Some people try to handle things by searching for a solution , some people have faith and hope for better things to come , some people just keeps complaining but never do anything about it , some people is just too ego to make things work , and others just simply gives up and never bother to fix it . I'm not saying that I'm an expert on handling my problems , oh never . To be honest , I screw things up quite a lot myself actually . But what I've learned is that you can tell a lot about a person by the way they handle things .

Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself . Make sure that you are a good person and a good friend . Appreciate everything around you because you never know what you have until you lose it , and once you lose i t, you can never get it back . If you have something to say , just say it . Be honest and straight forward . When people give you advices for your own good , take it in and do something about it . Treat people like the way you want people to treat you . What is meant to be will end up good and what is not won’t . Relationships are worth fighting for , but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting . At time , people need to fight for you . If they don’ t, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you . Hopefully , people realize great things when they come around and don’t lose something real . Always fight , until you can’t anymore , and then be fought for .

Marilyn Monroe once said that people change so that you can learn to let go , things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right , you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself , and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together .

So the next time you're having doubts about your life , or complain about how shitty your life is . Just stop . There are people out there who is dealing with stuff that is much more worse and painful than what you are dealing with right now . They just don't show it to the whole world . Being too dramatic about something small can cause something huge , something worse . Seeking sympathy from everyone isn't going to solve anything . Running away , hiding or killing yourself isn't going to do you any good . You'll just end up more miserable .

Fight for what is worth it , handle things the mature way and have faith a little .

♥

I Should Know by Now

Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough . Not good enough .

I am never good enough . I never have been and I guess , never will be .
One more , imma money grubber kan ?
*SAD*

i'll try my best to be better .

This is beyond frustrating . Words can't even begin to explain how I feel . Anger and sadness mashed up in one , even that can't really match up to the emotions running in me as I speak . There are some things you remember and some things , you just cannot forget . Like what happened today . It would be a miracle if I could just forget      . Unfortunately , I can't :( Im thinking why does im accept our love ? Yeahh , im accept it because im deserve it . But you ! You seems wont listen to each of my story and daily update . I just lost my mood to told you everything about what i'd past through in a day . Hmmmm . Things became murky sometime , And I still same . Never meant to mad at you . You must know that you're the one who make me mad sometimes . You do Nasrul ! I hurt to have you . okthxbai .

Second Day Of Eid

Celebrated the second day of Raya at my mum's hometown in Pasir Mas Kelantan , spent our raya eve there as well . Despite the fact that raya in Pasir Mas is never really as festive as it is in some people's hometowns , where they play fireworks , make dozens of lemangs with hundreds and thousands of cousins and even visit the whole neighbourhood , it was great celebrating the joyful occasion with my loved friends Awwabin Azmi and Rosmina Ismail , especially when we have new members in the family which call Atiq .

Girls , thanks for coming (: 

My eid happening after you guys came over !

Lebiu !