TALENTED !

Talent . Everyone has them , don't ever say you don't . You'll find out if you dig deeper enough . Everyone is gifted with talents of their own . Something they are able to do that can outshine them from others . Some were born to sing , some were born draw , some were born write , some can even play a certain instrument just by listening to the music . I think thats what life is about . We'll grow up , using the talents we were given and see what it will bring us , where it will take us .

who we shud blame on ?

I miss how things used to be with everyone . My friends . My family . My boyfriend . Everyone .


Most of my friends either just too busy for me or they go everywhere without me . Yet they complain I never ask them out . Primary school's friends , high school's friends , they're just the same . The longer they know you , they more they will hurt you . Such friends I have . As time passed by , the less friends I have . The less friends I can trust . The less friends I can talk to . The less friends who will actually be there for me . The less friends I can rely on . I always thought I knew who my 'true friends/best friends' really are , well , guess it was just a thought .
I can never live without my family but I feel like an inhibitor when I am with them . No doubt that they can live without me .
My NA and I are almost a year together now , time really flies . Things have been rough recently . I've always seen the bad side of him and I tend to forget what he had done for me . I definitely miss how things used to be with us . 

If all of them were to leave me , I wouldn't be surprised as "people come and go" . 

So Close But Still So Far

This, was taken recently in Alor Star at Kedah . One of the best trip I've ever had . Who wouldn't when you're on a trip with your friend right? I hope I'll be having more of this kind of trip in the future . And I would meet up a kind a friend like her ! yes ! she have an attitude can make ppl laugh and wont stop to faced her . So damnnnn beautiful ! She’s tough ! She was . The pathway of her life was hard . To FW,  hutang nanti jangan lupa bayar k >_< Why oh why me look like a living corpse? The lighting depan muka izit? bhahahahahahaha

p/s: Just a lil' bit of updates of what I have been doing and what I have been feeling. 

Origami Magic Rose Cube (Valerie Vann)

haihhhh ! main benda bodoh nie til kene marah . bhahaha . obsessed wei ! CJ lah cikgu aku :)

exactly !

you have NO idea how fast my heart races when I see you !
NA LOVE NA .

unforgiving (!)

Hate . Based on google , hate can be best defined as a feeling of intense animosity or passionate dislike for someone or something . At this exact moment , I don't think hate could even cover half of the strong emotions running in me right now . Its as if satan just became my best friend and butterflies , sunshines don't even exist . I should keep myself calm , but those horrific mental images are like forever flashing in my mind , exaggerating every moment I don't know if actually happened . 


Forgiveness . This on the other hand is easier said than done . Letting go of grudges and bitterness . Saying that 5 letter word – sorry . Whats the point ofapologizing , of promising to change , of wanting to be different , if you know its not going to happen . Why are we still lying to ourselves ? Being in denial . What good does it make ? Trapping yourself in a box of lies . Whats the point of forgiving if it still hurts , every second of your life . 


Let me tell you why , who are you to not be able to forgive , when god , Allah swt , is always ready to forgive you , with open arms . What makes you higher than god , what makes you better than god . This is how I train myself to forgive , to let go of the things I wish did not happen . 

changes nearer to me . *i guess*

2011 is a tough year for me . All the things I've done in the past , I'm facing the consenquences now , as I speak . I may regret apart of it but those things I did , made me the person I am today . Everything happens for a reason , I'm not perfect , learn to accept that I am no saint , I am no angel , I have my faults and my scratches and my mistakes .

I do not have a clean past , I did not spend the past few years at home , learning how to be a good wife for my man , I laugh out loud when I think its funny , I wear skirts and shorts , I may say the f word at times , I'm careless , I drop things , I hit things , I cry when I can't seem to hold it in anymore , I keep things to myself , I'm insecure , and if these things are not what you're searching for in a girl , then too bad , because these things made me real . I'm only human . But baby , u seems can accept me and my past . I'm new into you . I swear i wont do anthing bad and naughty some more . I wont scold you and I love you NA . 

okthxbai.

love letter in dream .

baby NA , i LOVE you ! here's the LOVE LETTER for you !
i mean it baby . Enjoy it :) mind if i Kiss you ?
i MISS you , i LOVE you . Yes , i do baby :)
"In bed my real love has always been the sleep that rescued me by allowing me to dream ."
And in my dream , my real LOVE will teach me how to play PES . bhahaha .

jump on my bed baby :)

All my life , I wish to find someone who understands my fears , my worries , the things I keep to myself , to hold my hand through difficult times , to listen to what I have to say , to the things I wish to have , to the things I wish didnt happen , to find someone who accepts my past , to accept me as who I am . I guess every girl does , wishing to find their prince charming . Luckily , am found my one . my only DENOSO . Nasrul Afiq . Thank you baby . iLOVEyou . amuahhh !

HAPPY 9TH MONTHS ANNIVERSARY BABY <3

im tired to be another me .

I’m Sorry ,

Sometimes , I get jealous thinking that someone else could make you happier than I could .

I guess it’s my insecurities acting up. Because I know i’m not the prettiest , smartest , or most fun and exciting .

But , I do know that no matter how hard and long you look , you’ll never find somebody that loves you like I do ! Trust me .

And , nothing ...... I just tired all of this drama between us . I tired to pretending , I just wanna be an old Natasha . hmmmm .

Okthxbai .

fogive me baby .

I wish I could take back everything I said , everything I did , the countless of times I hit you , the countless of times I said I was going to let you go . My mood swings clearly affect you , I know it does . I wish you would know how sorry I am , how much this post means to me , how much you mean to me . And hey , I post this entry using my phone in my sick mood . I do hate my kidney . And i wont pee anymore ! It make me sick . Sorry for the past thing that had made u cry . I'm sooo soooo sorry . I LOVE YOU !

bullshit !

I'm officially happy with my life now but sooner or later who knows right ?

But you baby you , drive me wild . I could dance till the moon sings . Your handsome face alight with laughter , my tummy giggles . This may sound corny but I like how it feels like . Butterflies in my tummy , my heart automatically skips a beat . 

In the blink of an eye , I felt like I was at the railing at the top of steps straining to see into the early twilight . Babyyyyyy , you make me feel so special but that habit of yours has gotta stop . But your explanation was well okay . I get it , atleast I'm your one and only . You're worth waiting , you're worth loving . You're such a turn on , you're such a charmer . So please , don't hurt like the way you use to because right now I'm deeply madly inlove with you :')

Not Natasha Amiera , guess who ? 

Typical me , you know who . Ttyl .

denoso , happy bornday ♥

You're getting older !
you're now officially 21 my dear NA .
oh oh just so you know , i'd love you even if you start growing WHITE HAIR ! :)
you're my everything , and you mean the whole world to me .
thanks for being there when i needed you most sayang .
you're the best boyfriend that a girl could ask for .
you're perfect in my eyes :)


i love you so much baby ! ♥


p/s : i know it's short , but it's all from my heart .

okthxbai :)

i swear , i LOVE you ! yes , i DO !

I like the way you laugh that makes me smile . 
I like the way you emoshit that makes me laugh from the inside .

I like the way you hold my hand that makes me feel warm .

I like the way you care about me as if there is nothing else for you to care about .

I like the way you envy some other random guys that makes me feel important .


whatever it is , you're still my denoso :)



loves,

Natasha Amiera ♥ Nasrul Afiq 

blow meeeee :)

I assume some of you may have noticed my lack of update or sudden disappearance , haha or maybe no one actually cares ..There isnt much to tell . 

Its kind of funny , not the hilarious funny , but funny how things have changed so much in over a few years . Months to be exact . Nowadays , whenever I log on my facebook and browse through my updates , I see photos of my friends around , you see changes in them and wonder , ey when did that happen ? Then you realise , that you don't know because you havent been around in their lives that much , neither have they been in yours . Now with the things going on in my life , its kind of sad to learn how little your friends know about you .

This is what happens when you grow up , friends drift apart . Life works that way . Sad, is it not ?

CRUEL-LESS

It sucks big time when the people around you wont support you in what you do . I mean sure , they love you , but whenever you decide to do some good for a change , instead of having your back , they laugh at you or joke about it . Its not that I blame them , sure I can be a useless piece of ass at times , but hey , at least I have the will to do something different about it . Suck to be me . The person i mean it is MAMA ! yeahhh my mom .

okthxbai :(

hello JUNE !

I should start my day with smile but I cant . June , please bring a lot of fortune for me . I am seriously sick and tired of everything happened on MAY . Every week there will always be a new drama among my friends , family or whoever . Past few days and current , I was emo-ing all alone in my room because of hmmm family ? I felt soooo not needed in this family ? And the way they are treating me is so unfair . I will be stuck at home for a few day . i HATE this happen to me . I dont have anyone . EMPTY ! It is the first child syndrome to always be the unlucky one btw , well that is what they always say . I need to have everything by my own and it is so unfair compared to my brother and sister . Nice mom ! I love this situation and a thousand thank you madam EMMA ! Everything seems to revolve around me and it is so disturbing and it is distracting me . fakit !

okthxbai :(