i wont leave u ! sorry

I don't think it ever occured to you how important you are in my life. I can feel that you're fading away, I can feel that we are becoming distant. Practically strangers. And to even imagine that I'll lose you one day, to another person, to God..scares me. Maybe we've been together for too long, maybe we're too young to even know what forever really means. Maybe I just stopped making you happy. Maybe I'm not good enough.

Manja's Bornday Celebration

Manja got this for her birthday ! Syam gave this to her :)

All my lovely auntie around except Hazel :(

We miss you Hazel !

Nasrul oredi balik but my auntie kancung ask him to come.

Poor him . Looks tired after ran me to hospital :(

Sorry baby !

Here is the birthday girl.

Name : Manja.

I Suffocate, I'm About To Drown

I have been keeping in all my frustrations and disappointments, all bottled up. Maybe I've reached my limit, I didnt know what triggered my insane mood last night but I realised I meant every word I said. I am just so sick of being used and yet, treated less than what I deserve. You keep on saying that you're just 22 well fuck it man, last time I checked I just turned 18 one month ago and I'm not complaining, am I? No one, I repeat, no one has ever treated me that way. I used to believe that someday, things may be different and you'll change but that was just me denying reality. You, my love, will never change.


I've been emotionally fragile lately or in other words, vulnerable. I guess I got sick of hearing complaints over and over again without seeing any changes. I got sick of hearing people talk about their problems and not wanting it fixed. I got sick of people judging everyone based on their facebook statuses. God, the coloumn says "whats on your mind" so if you hate seeing their updates on your news feed then delete those people for fucks sake and spare your sins already. I got sick of making plans to make things better. Fuck it, I'm only trying.


And my Baby Denoso, sorry if I hurt you a lots :( didnt mean to do so sayang. Am just uncomfortable with you now. Ur act, ur way and ur mad just like my ex. U know who am i mean it so kan? Please laa. I dont want that. Both of us tension kerja and please treat me like we had before. I love to be indulge and hmmmmmm. Dont know what to wrote. U just remind me to my ex and just so u know, I HATE IT !  PLEASE :( I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE US. Thanks for sending me to hospital even you're tired. Am gonna miss you for two weeks. You'll be duty on Kelantan this monday and will be back to Kedah for a week. Me love you so much. Dont want hurt u anymore. Promise myself :(

From Penang with Love .

Its 4 in the morning and I can't seem to fall asleep. Nahhhhh. Wanna update about my day in Kedah and Penang. Really Awesome . Nasrul's fren all are sociable :) 

He looks like a Cops in CSI New York right ?

HAHAHAHA

Using my iPad to edit this .

My baby with Wan Hambar !

Apit :) 

They love to bully him. Poor him.

From left : Naem, Paan, Madod, Dore and Wonggek !

Love this pict ! 

My baby make it as his default ! Muah Muah !

Till death do us apart baby :')

 Me & Nasrul ate half while Adnan pon makan Quater je. 

Mana lah aku tak gemok. Aiyak !

Love her, Najwa Khairi. Thanks sebab company at Hotel during night .

if u BORED, same like u have to get 'DEATH LIFE'

I have no time to think about others so i prefer to think about myself.

Only me. And I wont disturb others anymore seems no one would like anyone talked about their business.

Like I care all that ? Nahhhh.

Now am play such a idiot thing at house.

Alone.

Yipeeeee. 

Heeeee . I have no one to talked to .

Everyone is busy with their work.

Am smear my face .

HAHAHA . 

Ngeeowwwww !

See the last one . 

I'd copy Katy Perry in her One That Got Away VC .

Fool ! 

Tua tak sedar diri !

People are leaving and im all alone. Where did i go wrong? You can hate me all you want, just so you know i have nothing against you. And please, kalau tak suka aku just direct bagitau aku. Ingat aku nak hadap and tehegeh sangat ke muka kau besar macam Ikan Buntal tu ? Even kau tua dari aku, aku tak pernah nak heran dengan perangai kanak2 riang kau tu ! Kalau kau dah rasa diri tu perfect boleh masuk syurga, go on lah ! Nak block aku ingat aku kisah ? Kau tu bukan nya celebrity. Aku malas nak mention nama je. Kau dah tua, fikir masa depan kau bukan nya gaduh dengan budak macam aku. Macam lah aku mintak duit kau? Ada ke? Kau pon gedik nak cakap orang. Respect other if you want others to respect you ! Nah ? Barua nak report kat orang tua kau. And Nasrul pon sama. Nak sangat aku buat perangai lama balik. Seeee now aku dah jadi aggresive kau taknak pulak. Aku dah berubah 100% sebab kau! Kau nak apa lagi? Hmmmm . Aku dah start boring with our relationship. Nak cakap x sampai hati. Kat sini je boleh express. Fuck Up! Benci life macam ni. Hmmmm but life must go on. Apa2 pon aku still happy dengan kau but sometime kau annoy !

Okthbai.