she's so fake and my heart of negativity

This topic of losing friends... makes me feel so uncomfortable. Here they are making it public as ever their hatred . I'd like to be . -but only problem is .. who am I ? People say , "You are who you are" . People also say , "You can be anything you want to be" . So which is it ? If I try to be... something specific , am I being fake ? Am I not being true to myself ? -but then yet again , what is my true self ?

How do I truly know who I am right now is really who I am ? How can anyone know ? Is it even possible ? "This is who I am, and I can't change who I am"..Is being fake when you feel like you're lying about yourself ? -but what if we're so used to lying to ourselves and being so convincing that one day we ourself can't be sure of which or was ever the real "me".

"She's so fake". Something I hear get thrown a lot in conversations amongst people these days. I ask myself , how do they know she's fake ? eventhough i know she is not she was . but y ? y did she did that ? i read her blog . and like i dont know her , i pretend myself to be familiar with her . imma FAKE too yeah . but just for her . maybe .  What if thats .. her . The real her . you know who you are , you are the girl in the mirror . go and get yourself . and btw , do not publish a thing thats can makes boys OVERTHROW girl such as (AKU RINDU KENANGAN DENGAN ANG , MASA KITA STAY SAMA2 , SEBUMBUNG , SELANCAU and SEWAKTU DENGAN NYA ) okay ? respect others . bukan kau sorg perempuan kat dunia nie . jgn laaa tunjuk kat orang yg kau tu BITCH even you're NOT ! got it ? God has given you one face, and you make yourself another . I know that you believe you understand what you think I said , but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant .
because that's total bullshit . Of course you can change ! Everyone can , it's just a matter of you admitting the problem and having the initiative to bloody change .


So let me ask you again...

Is how you are now who you thought you'd be? Are you proud of who you are? Of how you've become? Ask yourself that .
Yes, some people do change . Maybe for the better . Or maybe not . But , when someone comes up to you and has the guts to tell you that you've changed for the worse , oh god , take that as a wake up call . And try to change and don't give the fucking reason .
How can you tell apart fakes from the .. not .

Everybody change. So are there such people who actually are who they are ? Or is the change apart of who they are ?

Are you who you are ?

Is there even such a thing as actually being who you TRULY are ?


-Or maybe I just think this way cause I'm so unsure of who I actually am .


Hard keeping your chin up when you keep losing friends . I have to accept the fact that some people are really genuine and some are just there for ... god know's why .