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Thursday, December 19

Kim Kardashian and Kanye West’s unnecessary music video

Dear Kanye, we know that you guys just had a baby and you’re happily in love, but surely there must be other ways for you to share your love with the world than appearing in an awful music video together that doesn’t involve a naked Kim Kardashian grinding on you while strolling on a bike? Disgust me.

Thursday, December 5

Kantoi Busuk Punya!

Guess what I found…

The picture below?
Yeah. Her.
What's her name again—Ruz? Fairuz? Whatever. Names don’t matter when your soul’s already forgettable.

The funniest part?
She follows me on Instagram.
SHE FOLLOWS ME!!!!!
Creeping silently while pretending she’s not watching.
And Nasrul? That clueless fool probably has no idea.
He can barely keep his lies straight anyway.
The man lies like a child, sloppy and loud.

I had no beef with her. Honestly.
My only problem is with the man I once called mine, Nasrul Afiq, the Grandmaster of Trash-tier Lies. Sama level dengan sampah. Hehe 
He told me he was at SS15. Said he was watching football with Ujang Selamat.
Cool story, right?
Laterrrrrr, she posts a cute little IG photo.
And look closer, that's Ujang.

But you know who’s there?
Guess who took that picture?

Of course.
Nasrul.

I laughed. Not because it’s funny. But because betrayal always looks the same: lazy.

So I call him. Calmly. Sweetly. I ask,
“Where are you, love?”
“SS15… bola belum habis lagi.”
Hmm.

Then I dropped the bomb.
Sent him the photo.
Said:
“INI KEBABIAN APA LANCAU WEH? AWAT DARI SS15 BOLEH JUMPER KE SAMPAI THE CASTLE KAMPUNG BARU? KAU TELEPORT KE NASRUL? KAU NI SPIRIT KE BOLEH LOMPAT TEMPAT? KAU INGAT KAU JUMPER?”

Silence.

Long silence.
You know the kind. The “I’m calculating a new lie” kind.
But it’s too late. The moment I saw that picture, I already knew.
This wasn’t just some “friend.”

He picked her up. From PV8.
Drove her out.
Lied to me about it.

So no, I don’t believe in "kawan biasa" anymore.
You made that impossible.

I’ve never stopped him from hanging out with other girls.
Never.
Because I don’t need to control people. I just watch.
And remember.

I’ve hung out with guy friends and told him, openly.
But he hated it.
Said it made him “uncomfortable.” Fuck you Nasrul Afiq!!
Funny how men cry about loyalty while hiding sins behind their back.

News flash:
You’re not that special, Nasrul.
You think you are, but you’re not.

So here’s what I said:
Pick.
ME or HER?

I’m always ready to walk away.
And when I go, believe me : one leaves, ten come knocking. 

You know it.
You know there are men waiting, watching, and you’ve always been afraid of that.
That’s why you didn’t want me talking to that guy.
That’s why you tried to clip my wings.

But too late.
Now, to the girl in the picture, get comfortable.
You’re either gaining a man or losing another friend.
Because if he chooses me, you’re out.
And if he chooses you, I’m gone, but he’s finished.

So let the games begin.
Let your little group of sidekick liars and cheerleaders take a vote.
Undi la. Pilih la.

But remember:
Even in silence, I’m not done.
I’m watching.
And I always return for what I’m owed.

And then, just to add fuel to my internal bonfire: fayah!!!!! 
I showed her photo to some of my guy friends.

They stared.
Squinted.
Then one said:
“Kenapa macam Jacklyn Victor?”

I laughed. Hard.
Another one added:
“Tak lawa langsung. Muka macam Mona Fendy.”

I. Was. Cackling.
Thank you, boys.
That really made my day.

Bye for now.
🖤

Thursday, November 7

Standing in the middle of the room

I was standing at a central point in the room. The walls were all at approximately the same distance from me. I continued to stand there for a few moments.

Tuesday, October 15

IKEA with them.

My apologies for the lack of posts.
I love Ikea for their meatballs. 
Which is highly ironic since they're a furniture store in the first place.
What are we doing having meatballs in a furniture store???!
We only have ourselves to blame if we ate horse meat unintentionally.
But I don't care. Their meatballs are freaking delicious.
No regrets whatsoever btw.
While some of you health conscious freaks may be appalled and giving a horrified gasp now, let me say that I don't have a beef with it. 
As long as they don't have traces of human meat, it ain't deterring me from eating them.
Bitch, I'll cut you if you stand in between me and my meatballs.
But whatever right? It's fine if you decide to stay on the side of caution; that would just mean more meatballs available for me!! Thanks buddy! \o/
It's certainly a foalish thought that while plenty of people around the world are eating shit like duck fetus eggstuna eyeballs, monkey brains and all that crap and here we are being grossed out and having nightmares from eating bits of horse meat and judging Ikea on our moral high horse.
I understand how medications those horses have taken previously may possibly pose as a health danger to us, but don't tell me stuff like tarantulas or animal brains won't?
Especially China. C'mon guys, you eat pets like dogs and cats (sobb) and now you're blaming IKEA for letting you eat someone's pet pony?  
Talk about double standards, neighsayers.  
....'kay, I should stop with the lame horse puns. Gotta rein it in.
or not. :P 


 My fren Fauzan Razak from Alor Setar, now he'd work at Damansara KL. A long lost friend.

Yeah.. I did asked these guys for permission before snapping their photos. ...totally.
I didn't eat breakfast beforehand so I was as hungry as a horse, hurhur.
The carbonate drinks there is not nice. So I, Eja, Mira & Ojan decide to move our
 fat ass to Starbucks to have our drinks here.

Anyway, it's been couple of hours since I've eaten those meatballs, and I'm fine so far.

Just keep calm and let the sleeping dogs lie, or should I say, quit flogging the dead horse. ;)

Tuesday, July 23

LOVE COME SLOWLY AND GO SO FAST.

Well you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 

Only know you love her when you let her go 

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
And you let her go 

Staring at the bottom of your glass 
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last 
But dreams come slow and they go so fast 
You see her when you close your eyes 
Maybe one day you'll understand why 
Everything you touch surely dies 

But you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 

Staring at the ceiling in the dark 
Same old empty feeling in your heart 
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast 
Well you see her when you fall asleep 
But never to touch and never to keep 
'Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep 

Well you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
And you let her go 
Oh oh oh no 
And you let her go 
Oh oh oh no 
Well you let her go 

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
And you let her go

Monday, July 8

Nak tulis caption ka xmau? haha

Just like orang selalu cakap, at beginning semuanya manis. Then dah lepas dua tiga tahun, entah ke mana. Semua benda pon tak kena. Dulu kongsi cerita, kongsi masalah, kongsi semuanya tapi now? Semua berubah. Semua tak sama. Semua tak kekal. Dulu ada problem, orang pertama aku akan bagitau is "NA" but now, dia busy, dia dengar pon nak taknak, cakap sepatah pon kena marah apatah lagi kalau nak object dua tiga patah. Semua tak sama, tak sama macam dulu. Maybe kita dah boring dengan each other. Maybe? Luckily ada girlfriends yang memahami. Such as Myra & Eja. Semua benda lepas dekat Myra & Eja. Menangis pon pinjam bahu Myra sebab bahu lama dah tak boleh  nak tumpang airmata dah. Bukannya nak menangis sangat tapi dalam seumur hidup, tak selalunya kita happy. Tak selalunya nak gelak 24/7. Kekadang ada jugak Allah nak bagi kita perasaan sedih, pilu and so on. Malas nak fikir. Kerja pon stress nak kena gerak sana sini, launch sana sini. Puasa pon nak dekat dah. Hmmmmm ada satu hal yg buat aku runsing, dalam minggu ni 3 org ex aku text aku then bagi hint nak get back. Konon rindu lah itu lah ini lah. Sorry bro, cukup lah dengan satu pisang yg dah ada, takkan pisang nak berbuah dua kali. hahaha maaf, ter-merapu pulak. Aku bersyukur dengan apa yang dah ada now, alhamdulillah. Today makan puas2 sbb lusa puasa dah. Tak sabar nak raya. Sebab bila raya, serta merta boleh jadi kaya sebab duit raya. Yeay! Hahaha bye. Have a nice people! Muah!

Thursday, June 20

Nuri!

Haaaaa sounds like Parrot! Nuri ni nama kedai TomYam sedap dekat Kg Baru KL ni! Aku dengan baby aku every week every day makan sini! Kami selalu order benda sama sebab ni ja kami makan! Yang penting kami x order SAYUR! S-A-Y-U-R đŸŒŋ Kami dedua tak makan sayuran hijau! Yeck. Jangan bagi kami sayur sebab kami bukan kambengggggg. 🐐 Kami kumpulan carnivore so suka kambing + daging steak. Tapi if p kedai Nuri ni kami akan order sotong stim limau, tomyam seafood pedas (favorite ni) i cant live without TOMYAM 🍲, sotong goreng tepung and kalau bosan makan nasi aku makan Mee Cambo dia! Mee Cambo macam sup but dia from Thai then dia letak chickenball or beefball. Slurppppp nyum! Nuri ni dah jadi port wajib kami since 2011 lagi. Now dia dah nak moved to lain. Nuri ni jugak owner dia sama dengan Rosdet Tomyam yang famous dekat ChowKit! Nanti if korang cari kedai Tomyam or kedai Siam area Kg Baru, boleh laa pergi Nuri or Rosdet! Korang takkan menyesal and sedap! Kalau pergi Rosdet jangan lupa makan ayam pandan and nasi bubur berlauk dia. 😋 Yummehhhhhh! K bye! Nak tido nak mimpi makan Tomyam! Tomyam 4 lyfe yeahhhhhh!

Tuesday, June 18

Vacation with second family

Me, Nasrul & a few friends  such as Harzely & Farhan decided to share this holiday together. Last minute plan. Haha. And on a nice gloomy Friday morning, we were off to Kota Bahru. Me & Nasrul from KL while both of them from Alor Setar. It took us a good 7 hours journey plus to the jetty before we could even see the place.

The trip are worth. I instantly felt energised the moment we stepped on the white sand beach...smelling the freshesh air I've ever breath in and just looking at the crystal blue sea...We choose to stay in this resort, which really is a wooden Tropicana Resort hut with air cond...exactly what we wanted but before, there is a conflict between us and the hotel guy. Nothing to remind us to the busy city life, just simple living & enjoying the serenity there (not to mentioned RM5 worth of mineral water bottles).




We managed to get in water & snorkeling on day two.

Perhentian Island is famous for its clean, clear seawater & wonder underwater life. Naturally we had to go for its snorkeling trips. The package includes an around-the-island snorkeling trip to 2 coral spots, a turtle spot & a sharks spot. IT WAS WONDERFUL. To be frank I know how to swim, proud tu ada laa sikit heeeee! My house got pool and since 5 my mom paid one chinese uncle name Michael to teach me swim matter.  I  jump straight in without wearing life jacket. I love Shark Point! Simply awesome...the only regret i had was not having an underwater camera. The corals, although not much, was absolutely gorgeous...you would somehow have a sense of peacefulness when your in the water, looking at the sea life below and just listening to nothing at all...Here are the photos from my snorkeling adventure...








There is two bar which is just next to each other named Black Tip & Beach Bar. At night, we went down to the bar to have some air and smoke shisha.





Perhentian Island is really a fantastic place to just have some much needed R&R for us city people. And its not that expensive as well...a RM250 per night resort would be more than enough for you to stay in, with their own beaches and very good basic facilities. Don't expect The Four Seasons Hotel but really, this is so much better than those 5 star hotels.



Go. Indulge yourselves.

Well...nothing to say really. No words seem to give justice to this beautiful little island...it is just...magnificent.


Oh by the way...expect at least 2 weeks of being the blackest among your friends after your Perhentian trip. Advise? Use ALOT of sunscreen.
Lastly, wanna say thousand thanks to Abe Peer cause send & fetch us at the jetty. Hmmmm. Wish abe could follow us! Next time okeh? Plan kasi clear! 

Sunday, April 7

True Way?

Ya Allah. im not ready to lose him yet. kalau ni dugaan, kau buat lah aku benci dia. let me hate him so that i can forget him. please ya allah. aku tak tahu mana perginya diri aku yg dulu, yg kuat and yg berani. I may seems desperate for this post, but no one will understand of what i feel. after 3 years baru lah nak jd mcm ni. kenapa tak 3 bulan dulu? berdoa je yg mampu buat masa ni. give him space, time and freedom. takmau cerita lebih, buat sebak dada ja. geram, marah, terasa bodoh, semua feeling ada. Hmmmm.