Lost Hope *sigh*

Chin up Natasha and smile.

Forget the past .

I cnt never change what you already are, so here i am ready to fall once more. I just hope that one day somewhere in your heart, there screams my name wanting to come out. Did i push you to hard? Did i make you turn into someone youre not? Who's wrong or understanding, you'll never understand because what i feel and think doesnt make sense.. im writing all of this cause i just feel like ive made a fool of myself. I dont blame the weather, i dont blame the world. I just feel stupid.

So i thought this is time where I should says goodbye. Cause it will never be the same again.

Im a never ending shame. Sorry if i made you look bad, Dear. My intentions were well. I sticked a note that u ask me to do. I'd bare it on my forehead. I gonna sell my BB even i love it. I'd use my Nokia torchlight as you requested. And im done here. Doing great. Accompanied by a tear. A million tears, trillion and my eye turn to black. Will not argue-ing with you and will not oppose and rebel you.I wont eat until everythings turn and back to normal. Not about protest but it automatically loss appetite. 

Sorry, maybe i wrote too much about you and this is why i cant forget you. The more i wrote about you, the more the hardest to forget you. I'll try.