What Does It Mean ?

My life has been filled with lots of unpleasant moments lately . But today , today I reached rock bottom . Despite the fact what happened approximately 4 hours ago threw a big impact to not just me but my family as well , I don't feel at all lost . To be honest , I actually felt ..relieved . I felt like I could breathe again , like I could just be myself without having any insecurities or deal with unnecessary drama . For the first time in weeks , perhaps maybe months , at that precise moment , I don't feel the need to change  . I felt absolutely fine being myself.