tongue-tied and BOO (!)

Why do I feel like I do not belong in anywhere ? I cannot be with a person for too long . They cannot own me . I cannot own them . I can feel the existence of gap . Why when everything is wonderful at the beginning but end up as suck as hell ? Why I fucked up in everything ? Why so hard to be with one another ? Why turns into black when it started out with white ? Why suddenly I feel so attached and just with a blink of an eye I don’t feel it anymore ? Why hate when the main intention is to love ? I don’t understand the situation I’m in right now . I couldn’t figure out what’s happening around me ?
Things flow too fast , I walk too slow , I barely walk to be exact , I crawl , crawl to search the right path to stand , and then walk , walk with confident . I want that feelings . The feelings of feel right about everything , no fucking doubt in my mind only the whisper of “go, don’t stop . Go, everything is fine . Go, don’t worry about everything . Run , run faster . Run , run harder , reach everything , grab everything , everything is yours , none to be lost , everything is permanent . All rights reserved . Run , as fast as your leg could run , go , fall in love without having a thought of what ifs ? Smile without having a thought of if anyone ever notices ? Do everything you want , do everything you desire , I got your back , I’ll back up everything for you . The world is yours . GO , DON’T STOP , NOW GO . This world belong to you NATASHA ! It's belong to US NA <3