we could have it :)

I am currently listening to The Sweet Escape by Gwen Stefani, I just absolutely  love this song. My best friend, Hariza , played this out loud for me back in 2007 when I was feeling down and it used to cheer me up, heck, it still does until today. 


I have a lot in my mind , but I somehow can't seem to get it out . It amazes me , really , how some people , at the age of their early 20s and still seem so immature ,as if they're still a teenager . News flash , you're not . Its time to grow up , its time we all grow up . Face our mistakes , face reality . Facebook , parties , dressing up to look good on camera and can't wait to have it uploaded , what life is that ? Deny it all we want , its the ugly truth , its what all our lives are revolved around nowadays . Chasing to have the coolest friends , attending the best parties , dancing to songs that don't even make sense , capturing the dirtiest photos , to achieve what actually ?


I guess fun used to be a big part of my life . Its fun while it lasted , and now when its reality , you look back at what you have been during your teenage years and can't help but regret every single shit youve done , realising that you were nothing but trash . OKAY STOP :)

And now , start talking bout my *DENOSO* . nahhhh . we'd reach a Danger Zone . kidding . he'd company me at 24/7 . yeahhhhmeeeee *HAPPY* I NEED SOMEONE . yes totally i NEED someone , then he came for me . My grandparent and uncle  involved in an accident :'( but thanks to god they're SAFE :) pfftttttt . Btw thanks to my baby :) for the 1st time you 24/7 with me . I LOVE YOU :)

This short post is specially for my denoso ,

honestly , I just realized I have never been there for you . And no , I'm not going to say sorry since you told me to save my sorry . I never thought that sometimes I am just too busy for you . I always say that you never lean on me when you have problems and you never tell me your problems but it is actually me the problem , and I didn't even offer my shoulder for you to lean on , I didn't even lend my ears to you . You're the best boyfriend that anybody could ever have , and I am the worst girlfriend that anybody could ever have . I have never appreciated you the way I should . Thank you for everything , sayang . Thank you for driving all the way from house to anywhere I want , and sorry for urge home immediately malam kat Castle tuh reason sbb nak muntah . just to put a smile on my face and sending me to Minnie Chop and force me to ate my Bihun Soup til LICIN  just to make sure I don't starve myself . Thank you for driving me here and there although you're tired .Thank you , thank you , thank youuuu !!! If I were to list what should I thank you for , I think this post will be full of thank yous . This time , I am begging you to give me a chance to let me improve myself and start thinking about you other than myself . PLEASE? :{ *it's all about cigarette* and please , update me by drop some comment if u read this .Forgive me . And i'd promise you not to touch even use that thang again :(

okthxbai .