Soon i will LOST you granny :(

When I was small , I seriously think I was weird . What I thought of and stuff was just ... weird . I use to get very emotional when I see old people . Every time I see an old lady walking by herself , I use to think

"Why is she alone ? Where's her children ?".

I remember when I was about 7 and I followed my mum to the bank in Brickfield , there was this old lady selling keropok outside and I whispered to my mum

"Ma , buy her keropok" .

But my mum just said she didn't one any . So I just looked at the old lady with this odd feeling in the pit of my stomach while walking back to the car .

So in the car I asked my mum

"Ma , don't you feel sorry for the old lady ?".

And she said with a smile ,

"Kakak , a lot of people by her keropok , look"

I looked at the lady , and there were people by her keropok and I smiled .

Until now , I get very emotional when it comes to old people . I think it's cause I imagine my grandmother being in a position like that . I love my granny . She's not really old though .

Scary part is ... I'm starting to have that feeling . The feeling that she's going soon ....
Oh God pleaseeee , not now or maybe NEVER . I LOVE HER :'(


And actually , i post this just because i want REFRESH my memory that has LOST .


Yes , i admit this . i got a MEMORY LOSS SYNDROME . 


So , for now i need to feed back my memory by remember-ing all past moment i had before no matter it is SWEET , SWEAT or what .