True Way?

Ya Allah. im not ready to lose him yet. kalau ni dugaan, kau buat lah aku benci dia. let me hate him so that i can forget him. please ya allah. aku tak tahu mana perginya diri aku yg dulu, yg kuat and yg berani. I may seems desperate for this post, but no one will understand of what i feel. after 3 years baru lah nak jd mcm ni. kenapa tak 3 bulan dulu? berdoa je yg mampu buat masa ni. give him space, time and freedom. takmau cerita lebih, buat sebak dada ja. geram, marah, terasa bodoh, semua feeling ada. Hmmmm.