Worth

I have never considered myself anywhere near beautiful or even pretty to begin with. To be honest, my self esteem has always been pretty low. To get married and having someone constantly reminding you how hideous you look like, how horrible you are, how you're only pretty in photos, how you are overweight, how ugly your stretch marks are, how lumpy your body is..can destroy every confidence you have in you. Its not like I have ever considered myself desirable but having to hear this every single day of your life, makes you feel worthless. You can't even bear to look in the mirror without hating yourself, wishing for someone else's life instead. You can't help but to think that you were just a mistake. It isn't anyone's fault that they look the way they are, it's not like they can help it. So why be mean when someone that is less attractive decides to wear make up, decides to put on something nice, decides to beautify themselves?  Why be mean when all they want is to feel good about themselves? Some aren't that lucky, that you have to understand. They're still human, after all.i will not trust anyone especially my bf. even he's being good to me, what he had done he will feel it back but it's not at the same time. Just wait in slow and motion. It will come. Perharps...... No.........

I can't explain this feeling

I think about it everyday.