I Suffocate, I'm About To Drown

I have been keeping in all my frustrations and disappointments, all bottled up. Maybe I've reached my limit, I didnt know what triggered my insane mood last night but I realised I meant every word I said. I am just so sick of being used and yet, treated less than what I deserve. You keep on saying that you're just 22 well fuck it man, last time I checked I just turned 18 one month ago and I'm not complaining, am I? No one, I repeat, no one has ever treated me that way. I used to believe that someday, things may be different and you'll change but that was just me denying reality. You, my love, will never change.


I've been emotionally fragile lately or in other words, vulnerable. I guess I got sick of hearing complaints over and over again without seeing any changes. I got sick of hearing people talk about their problems and not wanting it fixed. I got sick of people judging everyone based on their facebook statuses. God, the coloumn says "whats on your mind" so if you hate seeing their updates on your news feed then delete those people for fucks sake and spare your sins already. I got sick of making plans to make things better. Fuck it, I'm only trying.


And my Baby Denoso, sorry if I hurt you a lots :( didnt mean to do so sayang. Am just uncomfortable with you now. Ur act, ur way and ur mad just like my ex. U know who am i mean it so kan? Please laa. I dont want that. Both of us tension kerja and please treat me like we had before. I love to be indulge and hmmmmmm. Dont know what to wrote. U just remind me to my ex and just so u know, I HATE IT !  PLEASE :( I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE US. Thanks for sending me to hospital even you're tired. Am gonna miss you for two weeks. You'll be duty on Kelantan this monday and will be back to Kedah for a week. Me love you so much. Dont want hurt u anymore. Promise myself :(